My Original Mystery

A mother who I've forgotten all about

How could that happen, how?

Is it my tiny brain that has no room?

Or is it fate that I forgot about you?

Is it an ego issue from days long gone?

Or is it the slow setting of the Sun?

I have no clue

only debris and wreckage

is what I have brought to you

That's why I'm writing this down

for I am making long overdue amends

Dear Mother of my Heaven

please accept my humble request

please forgive me my belligerent ignorance

You must see and know my heart

for you just told me recently 

that you believe in me...

O how deeply you've touched me

I cried myself to sleep with those words

".... My Mother believes in me....." :'(

So why do I doubt myself so deeply?

I don't know... It's an inner thing

I just have to learn to trust I can sing...

Yes, a Divine song it is.... a dance

"just one foot in front of the other"

that's all it takes...

Soon I will be worthy of my crown

fully equipped with an ancient sense

I'll sing all throughout the ear deafening silence

with a song of truth that delivers the righteous

This I hold on to

this I now know

For I am ready

to be engaged in truth

and this time my faith is steady

'cause the light of love begins to shine through

Can I ever make it right?

Is there anything I can do?

When will I  start to see Her light?

When will I finally feel less blue?

As soon as I give up the fight

you are my guide in the dark

my only anchor in days so wild

the wind in my sails, the love in my heart